Becoming My Own Champion

I'm back!!!

It's been a long time since my last post. Life has been so busy that I just haven't had the time to sit and write but I'm taking the time now.

I finally decided to go back to Weight Watchers to try and get some kind of control on my weight. Since my stem-cell transplant, I began having issues with my thyroid and had gained 30lbs in just a year. I seem to have stabilized but I'm just not happy with my weight. 

I finally decided the time has come to do something about this extra weight.  Even though I am scared, because what if I can't lose it? I'm afraid of failure because when I put my mind to something, I want to see it through. But my body is so completely different than I was before cancer that I'm almost scared it's not possible.

But no one else can do it for me. I need to be my own champion and use all my warrior strength to achieve my goal.

So here's to health and fitness!!! Rock on! 🤘

My 6th year re-Birthday

Six years ago tonight I was given another chance at life. A complete stranger from the other side of the world, selflessly, donated her stem-cells in order to save someone's life. 

In a way I feel special because I am blessed with two birthdays, my actual birthday and my re-birthday.

My re-birthday signifies a new life, a new journey, a new beginning. It is a reason to celebrate. There is no shame to recognize and speak of it. Because without it, I would not be here.

This day does not signify grief or sadness. There's no doubt the journey to be where I am today was a long one and there were times the outcome was unknown but there was always hope. And that hope went minute by minute, to hour by hour, from day by day until it has become year by year.

For me, my re-birthday is a day to celebrate and recognize the importance of this monumental miracle.  It's a day to celebrate life, to embrace it, to love, to laugh and to appreciate each other and know how blessed we truly are. ❤

God bless and Rock on!!!

Time to Reflect and Be Thankful

This is the time of year that I always reflect on the year 2010 and where  I was on Thanksgiving day.  Six years ago, I was prepping for my stem-cell transplant. Laying in my hospital bed, eating my dinner by myself, while my family had their dinner in the hospital cafeteria.

The memory of that day really puts things in perspective. It has taught me to cherish each day, treasure every moment no matter how big or small, to love hard, and to be thankful for family, friends, and to my selfless donor who gave me another chance at life.

Happy Thanksgiving and God Bless!!!


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http://thedoubter.org/977/thanksgiving-eve-service/

In Limbo

I'm stuck.
I'm not regressing.
I'm not moving forward.
I'm just there.

I feel like I'm at a crossroad. Do I move forward and leave all of cancer behind me? Or do I go left or do I go right? Will I encounter something new as a result of cancer or will I awaken something or somethings that have been dormant, only to battle and conquer again?

I know what I cannot do. I cannot and will not go back. I can't even make myself turn around. I can't even take a peek. Because what you think would be an innocent peek, would be like an innocent peek at Medusa. In just that fraction of a second, your life could end. It could turn you to stone keeping you stuck in a time you never want to relive.

I think that my path is becoming the one where I choose to move forward. But even when I move forward, somewhere on that path, I am faced with another and the only option is left or right. I need to choose because going back isn't an option. Whichever I choose it leads me to moving again to choose yet again.

This has become my new normal. A life in limbo. A life of moving forward. A life of walking in circles. But never, NEVER will it be a life going back.

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http://www.meahrobertson.com.au/crossroads

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Life After Cancer

This article is amazingly accurate....feels like she was inside my own head and read my thoughts

Check out this article...

http://mobile.nytimes.com/blogs/well/2015/03/16/lost-in-transition-after-cancer/?_r=0&referer=

September - Blood Cancer Awareness Month

For all those who have fought the battle and who are still fighting!!!


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