Recently, my thoughts have been going about a mile a minute due to some more than somber circumstances. A close friend of the family has recently been diagnosed with two different forms of cancer. One form is so rare that the outcome of the treatment plan is uncertain. I have spoken to him a few times and have made two visits. He has even stated to others that out of all his visitors, my visits have meant the most to him. Is it because we share the experience of cancer and all the emotions, thoughts and fears that come with it? During our first visit, I just sat and listened to him. At times, I held his hand. I understood what he was saying. I understood his fears and the concern for his family that he may leave behind.
It became clear to me after my second visit, that I became his 'hope'. His hope of surviving the two different forms of cancer that has violated his body. I am proof that even though cancer violated me twice, I still survived. Even knowing I had survived from the help of my donor, I'm still here.
I want to be that beacon of 'hope' for others as well or at least assist those suffering from cancer in finding their beacon of 'hope.. I want to empower them to fight, no matter how tired or lousy they may feel.
When reflecting on my own experience with cancer, I do not look at it as a negative. It has been enlightening and has opened my eyes to the strengths I didn't know I had.
This is what I want to do. This is my passion. This is what I'm meant to do and my purpose. I want to be there for those who are suffering from the effects of cancer, whether it's the patient, or the patient's family. This is how I want to give back.
I'm trying to find my niche. I'm not one that some would consider 'out-going' or the 'life of the party'. I'm more the type of person to be behind the scenes thinking and planning. I having been thinking and planning for some time, and hopefully, will be taking the next steps to put my plan into action.
So in the words of Maya Angelou "my mission in life isn't merely to survive; but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style".
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